Communication

Out of all days for drama.......today is the day by BD (Baby's Daddy) decides to bring me that as a gift. I managed to get 6 months worth of pent up frustration, aggravation, anger, sadness, and raw emotions regarding my situation with him out today. He fails to realize that COMMUNICATION IS A KEY in ALL relationships. Relationships being defined as friend to friend, mother to father, boyfriend to girlfriend, etc. He and I have a parenting relationship. I don't believe in telepathy and I sure don't have the ability to read anyone's mind including his. Me and my BD had a screamin' match for hours today and I am emotionally exhausted.........forced to reveal raw emotions and tears. I've been fightin' them back and covering them up with anger because it's SO much easier than bein' vulnerable to the situation tearin' my heart apart. I can't stress enough how important communication is between people. I know sometimes it can be hard to communicate certain things but if you deny ME communication then my mind is allowed to wonder off trying to figure out what is actually going on or what is actually being felt. I don't know how you feel unless you tell me how you feel. This was a time bomb waitin' to explode........it was inevitable. Just kills me because it could have ALL been avoided if he would have allowed communication to happen. SO FRUSTRATING! I am drained right now and hope that we had a breakthrough for our son's sake because I want him in DJ's life and I have never wanted to have THAT kind of relationship with my BD where we couldn't get a long. I'm going to put it in God's hands and hope that it gets worked out. This is me venting.....I know........I'm done.......life will move forward hoping for the best. So please remember with EVERY relationship you have in your life that it is imperative that you communicate because I promise, the other person CANNOT read your mind.