Precious Life

Life is so very precious. It is too often that we take it for granted. It is too often that we take a breath and forget that it can be over in an instant and thank God for the next one that comes after it. Death is a true fear of mine for many reasons. Tears fall down my face thinkin' about any of my family or friends dying. I've never really lost someone to death that has been incredibly close to me and really don't want to find out how I would be emotionally. I've lost people that I knew and I've lost family that I wasn't really that close to or was too young to recognize the significance of the loss. Sometimes I dream or maybe just hear of someone else losing their life and my mind goes twisting into "what if" and it literally drives me to tears because I cannot fathom losing someone I love. Just seeing someone else mourn over someone they loved makes me emotional. Sometimes I wonder if God's plan for me to go will be sooner than later or will I be old and have the opportunity to be blessed with more family of my own.........will I get to see DJ get old and take the journey of life through school, first kisses, success, and have a family of his own. I never want to leave him lonely.........I love him SOOOO much.........words cannot even grasp the emotion behind my love for him. He is a true blessing to me and sometimes I don't always feel like I tell him that enough or show him enough but he truly is my heart. Losing him would kill my heart and I hope God's plan for him is to outlive me many many years. I do hope that whenever God makes my last breath that I leave a good memory.........leaving my family and friends with a blessing........leaving them with happiness to remember me by. I love my family and I hope if not anything else that they know that I love them with every feeling in my body, mind, and soul. When I leave this world I hope you all, family and friends, know that you are a blessing to me. You all and DJ are what keep me going and keep me grounded and I thank you all. Just remember that life is precious, so never forget to say I love you if you feel it, never forget to give a hug, never forget that the last thing you said to me or someone else could be the very last thing you ever say.