Life's journey in 2010

So 2010 was probably my toughest year yet, in my 28 years. It's almost hard to explain everything I went through but I'm going to attempt to break it down a bit. In May, I parted ways with a close friend, which I had never had to really deal with the way that it ended. I found myself questioning a lot of things and people around me off the back of it, just because of the way it all went down. A lot of people that knew this particular friendship were somewhat dumbfounded and anticipated it to be just a spat and temporary rather than what it actually became, permament. There was an overwhelming amount of disprespect and demeaning of character that this person dished out over something that I found (and still find) so petty, when it was all said and done, I believe I'm better off without this person. I stand by the fact that my life is not to be dictated by any friend of mine and will stand firm on this idea until the day that I lay it to rest. It's amazing the thoughts and feelings that will come out when someone is mad at you. True colors were shown like I had never seen 'em and I'm sure glad they eventually came to light, even if through this unfortunate way because life's already full of trials and tribulations, that there should be no room made for unnecessary pettiness, fakeness, and ungenuine-like people calling themselves "friends" to come make it any harder. To date, me and this person are no longer friends and as far as I'm concerned, I'm much better off and not regretting. I didn't anticipate her to be a "season" in my life but apparently God had a different plan for that friendship. I believe everything happens for a reason. If you aren't lifting me up, then I gotta remove you from my scene.

I found out in October that I was going to be losing my job with the company I had been working with for 6 years and the attorney I had been working with for 7 years. It was much to my surprise and definitely not the best news. I procrastinated too much in the following 3 months in finding a new job and was rather discouraged at the amount of others who were also finding themselves in the same unfortunate predicament as myself. I knew with as much qualification and experience that I had, that finding a new job shouldn't be hard, but at the same time I wasn't seeing too many opportunities that were on the pay level that I was preferring. Plus I was having to find a different type of occupation and didn't have a clue what I wanted to do. I had been working at a real estate title company for 7 years and loved it. I had been informed by many sources that the real estate market wasn't going to show any signs of improvement, from its already poor state, for another 2-3 years and so trying to find a job within the same field wasn't ideal or stable in my opinion. I was kind of excited about the "vacation" of having a job initially, but after those bills started rolling in, disconnect notices started appearing, broke becoming a serious reality, and unemployment taking a LONG time to start paying......I wasn't so fond of the "vacation" I was somewhat excited to have originally. I now understand that having a job is something you shouldn't ever take advantage of because when it is gone, it is HARD.

I picked up a lot of bad habits in 2010 and through all the hardships I began to over consume in such habits. Though I don't like to admit it, I went through an extremely self destructive phase in my life and had a GREAT time doing it. I don't regret any of it because I enjoyed myself during this phase and had a lot of good times and met a lot of great people. All of it started to hit me kind of hard emotionally towards the fall of last year. I found myself breaking down when I was alone with myself one day. It was then that I decided at the close of 2010 that the phase needed to end and be left in 2010, and thus far I have accomplished such and am doin' rather well.

Been a loooooong time........

It has indeed been a long while since I've blogged, but I have missed it tremendously and will be posting regularly again. Writing is very therapeutic for me so I believe I should pick it back up because my life has been quite interesting. Sooooo stay tuned and most of all, ENJOY!