Stone Cold Heart

You tell me that you have a stone cold heart......do you not realize that if you don't eventually open it up that you might miss out on your perfect part? I'm not saying that God intended me to be your perfect part BUT how could you ever know? I think you failed to remember that when we first met that I to had a stone cold heart as well........I to had been through entirely too much pain of "love" struggles just as yourself and was so scared to really allow you into my life in that way........was unfortunate but refreshing that you could relate to me in regards to matters of the broken and protected heart. As time passed the chemistry we had was so overwhelming but priceless to me.......I kept asking myself could he be the one? Did God place him in my life because he's the missing piece of my puzzle? My skepticism kept me from really believing that you could really ever give into me and sincerely care for me and not hurt me like all the others, but my mind and heart made me take a chance on you and allow myself to be vulnerable to the possibility and potential for a true love. You truly made me happy........I've never had so many butterflies in my stomach throughout. I gave into my emotions eventually and opened my heart to you and for what? Can you honestly sit there and tell me that you never felt for me.........that your heart was so stone cold that you never saw anything between you and I.........that after all this time, you invested NO emotions or feelings into me..........were my feelings for you a waste of more of my precious and already broken heart??? You say that you were starting to see me as just a FRIEND........did you really not notice that I wasn't feeling that same way......that hadn't even crossed my mind once that it would ever turn into JUST a friendship......I don't treat and act with "friends" as I always have with you and I would hope that you don't act with just "friends" as you did with me. Time and time again I let you know how I genuinely felt.......you should have told me. I don't believe you recognize the depth of emotions I had for you. And yes if you would have told me three or four months ago that you weren't feelin' it then it still would have hurt me but gosh I honestly have put up a wall to so many other potentials because of what I saw in us. You were worth the wait to me......I was being more patient with you in hopes that you to would recognize that we had mad chemistry on so many levels.........how could there not be a chance that two broken hearts came together and handled each other with delicacy and care. I'm so upset and I was tryin' to talk myself into angry mode to cover up the pain that I am feeling right now but to be honest I sincerely feel broken and cannot fight off these tears........I'm sad beyond words........I feel like another love story in my life had begun and now will become just another unfinished chapter in my life.......another disappointment........another reason why maybe I should stay away from any potential romance because this hurts too much to keep doin' it. Maybe I should go back to my stone cold heart.......back to remembering anytime romance between me and any man sparks that I should put it out with ice built up around my heart to keep me from these situations. Why am I so blind? I'm more upset with myself that I whole heartedly cared for you and sincerely thought that it wasn't just a one sided feeling. I know ultimately it is in God's hands and though tears are falling down my face, I believe that He will find someone to recognize the beautiful love that I have to offer. It just crushes me that it wasn't you.