Dear love and desire.

Category: Romance and Relationships

Dear Love and Desire,

As I sit and wonder why on tv love looks so easy and attainable,
the thought makes me smile and hopeful to find love as calm, strong, and genuine.

Then as I gaze upon one that gives me that same tingle at times that I see on tv,
a storm arrives to strike the lightning and awaken me to the reality that love is not as cool and breezy as the tv may make it look at times.

I guess my patience is what I need to work on because it seems love and romance seems too good to be true and too far in the distance to be believable.

I look around wondering if that LOVE that should be so full of depth, genuine, loyal, strong, supportive, unconditional, everlasting really exists in this day in age.

Can someone take ME AS I AM and love me without the thought of disloyalty and proving to me that there will always be repeated pain to endure in my heart?

I know your supposed to take the good with the bad BUT why does that bad usually end up being the devastation or misery to a relationship?

Unconditional love.......hmmmmm.......that's a hard one to grasp because could I forgive one that cheated or even worse a non-changing, repetitive cheater?

Is love enough to look him in his eyes day in day out wondering if he even notices me or if I'm just there because I'm comfortable to him?

Is love enough to be with him wondering if and how much time has elapsed since he was thinking of or maybe even holding another woman?

Ahhhhhh and the subject of why one will yearn for another that may not reciprocate that desire AS MUCH. Should the desire to be with one be mutual AT ALL TIMES?

If it is reciprocated even 80% of the time is that sufficient? Is there a perfect 100% out there?

Why does she take time to talk one into staying when she should be the one answering that question from one?

Why does his touch, his kiss, his warm embrace, his little funny jokes, his intelligence, his drive, his sweet whispers ALWAYS keep her comin' back?

Why is it so hard for her to let go?

She questions if letting go is the right thing to do just to be safe or if her fear of abandonment and loneliness keeps it alive.

What does she do if one walks away briefly but walks back to her with passion in his eyes?

Why does she pick up the phone so many times, dial his number and before it fully connects end the call because she wants her phone to ring showing his call coming into her phone because she was thought of before she thought of him?

Why does such a beautiful, independent, determined, grown, caring, loving, genuine woman fall into her weakness so often?

Maybe that is why the desire to adore and love is SO strong to her because she has to fight to keep it alive at times and she chooses to try to let the good out weigh the bad.

Wondering if being released from the desire to love and desire for him would make her happier and more at peace and ending the constant questions..........I don't believe so because that is her and her is sometimes ME.

Thank you love and desire for allowing her to have you in her life and heart but is it possible that you make the way a little easier and more understandable for her because she feels she is worthy and ready.

Sincerely,
ME