An apology doesn’t make EVERYTHING okay.

Category: Friends

I know it is said once someone apologizes that we are supposed to "forgive and forget" but does anybody else realize how hard that is to do. I am a very loving and forgiving person HOWEVER once I've been wronged by someone, I have a hard time with just "forgive and forget" as I am not God. I am human and with that comes error but blatant disrespect amongst other hateful remarks are not all solved by the words "I'm sorry" in my opinion. I definitely do NOT like to hold grudges against anyone but I almost can't fathom how I am supposed to just forget. I'm not okay with someone doin' me wrong and tryin' to come back into my life just as soon as the words "I'm sorry" comes out of their mouth like that should make EVERYTHING okay. It doesn't! In the back of my mind I will always retain what someone has done to me, and whether that is just memory of pain or maybe just plain mistrust, it is still there. I am by far perfect but when I've wronged someone I am quick to try to make it right if I am knowledgeable of it but I also know that "I'm sorry" does not always bring a resolution to the hurt and I don't sit there and pretend like the person I may have hurt has completely forgotten about it. If they are human like myself I doubt strongly that it is forgotten when forgiven. I don't know maybe it is a defect I have and something that I need to learn to do but for now those things will linger in my mind when he or she is talkin' to me like everything is all hunky-dory. The point of this blog is just to let you know I don't FORGET the GOOD or the BAD that one has done to me so keep that in mind when you are talkin' to me or maybe callin' me everyday like you once used to.......hint hint I'm probably not okay with it right off the bat if EVER.