It’s still so fresh.......let me heal.

Category: Romance and Relationships

Gosh.......it's still so fresh. My feelings just got minor league hurt. I mean I give it everything in me to salvage a friendship (if it began with friendship before romance) out of a dating or relationship situation that didn't work out, but dang it......it's just hard to see him with someone else so fresh after we've stopped dating. The first time is always uncomfortable but SO FRESH. I mean dang it's been such a short time since the end of our dating adventure. Kinda hurts that he would think about bringing a "date" to such an exclusive mutual friends gathering KNOWING I'm gonna be there. Yeah I'mma have to put on my "I'm alright and I don't care" face but I'm really not gonna be. It's just so fresh still. I don't feel like I'm overreacting at all and it would be so different if it were a few months down the line but give me some time to get over it. Granted we're trying the friendship thing but dang I can't just erase my feelings away RIGHT AWAY........it takes time for SOME. I can't imagine if the roles were reversed that he would appreciate me doing the same. If he felt the way he said he did then I know it would bother him. Hmmmmmmm...........here I go.......putting my thick, strong shell on again. Get so sick of doing that sometimes but don't want to show everybody that my strength was penetrated by emotions and got me feeling uncomfortable. I'm gonna move past the feelings eventually but this soon...........naw, it takes time as I was really feeling. ONE can't cake on additional discomfort to a slowly distinguishing feeling and expect ones feeling not to get hurt more. Let it heal first, THEN RUB IT IN! It's common sense if you think about it and if ONE really cares ONE would have thought about that.